My God-given word this year—linger—does not come easily.
I have so much to do. Much of it of my own making, by my own choice. Certainly some of it is required, expected—it’s my job. And then there are the needs, the people, the conflicts that come unexpected and unbidden, but needing attention.
My lingering journey has barely begun. I’m sure it will be step by step and day by day. I believe I have many steps and days, perhaps years, ahead of me. But it has begun.
I am not doing everything I think I need to do. I am closing my computer earlier, more often. I’m reading more—books. I’m lingering over dinner with my husband, over lunch with a friend, at the office with a co-worker. I am sitting beside my husband watching a favorite show—without my computer.
And I am lingering with God. In his Word, In my journal. But mostly on prayer walks, step by step.
Baby steps. Not always, perhaps not even often. Yet still, I am beginning to linger.
So how has this happened? What has triggered these changes, prompted these choices, stimulated my willingness to slow down, my desire to linger? I can think of three possible sparks that have kindled this lingering journey.
I am so tired.
I’m tired of responding to “How are you?” with “I’m tired.”
I can explain much of my tiredness: so many things to do, not enough exercise, not enough right food choices, not enough sleep. And perhaps, significantly, so many needs.
I tend to absorb the emotional distress of others too often, and when those concerns multiply, so does my emotional weariness. My life has been filled with wonderful people experiencing loss, medical issues, family conflict, financial struggles, injustice, misunderstandings…
I usually linger with these friends, as I want to, but sometimes all the pain and loss accumulates on me and I grow weary.
My husband needed to reduce pace and stress
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